I remember so clearly the years I longed to be a mom. When each year the approaching mothers day would break my heart and I would lie awake and wonder just what motherhood would be like. Praying and trying to grasp some understanding as to why the very thing I longed for most seemed so within my reach and yet so very far away. Praying that God would either grant us a child or take away the deep desire in my heart because it was just too hard. I imagined the snuggles and the way it must feel to comfort a little one and hear them say mom. I have to tell you 7 years into being a mom it was so much more then I ever imagined. To be completely honest in my dreaming and wishing I never thought of the late nights, no stop crying of both and mom and child :) , just how overwhelming the responsibility to raise and teach another human the ways of life can truly be! I didn't know just how much it would change my life. How when I see these two my heart is so full of love and joy! How watching my Husband be a dad would make me fall even more in love with him. I had no idea just how deep a mothers love can run. So as we celebrate mothers day and the kids say all kinds of nice things to thank me for being their mom, I want to remember to pause and thank God for letting me be a mom to these two amazing little ones. I pray that I may do my best and that God will fill in the great big gaps I have failed at. I am thankful for the family and friends who help me in so many ways to teach my children and encourage me to be a better momma. To all you moms out there I hope your mothers day was blessed and to all of you longing to be mothers I pray that the special child who was meant to be touched by you will come into your life at the perfect moment.