Friday, July 30, 2010

what matters most...

What a crazy summer and it seems it continues to surprise us. Two week ago we were getting ready to head off for our favorite vacation a week of camping at Wallowa lake. While we were packing up the car we heard from someone who is handling our complete against our previous buyers Mortgage broker only to find out he never worked for the company he says he worked for, and never filed any loan applications. We are still trying to process the fact that our lives were on hold for a lie. So when we headed out the next morning for our vacation I was ready for a week of relaxation and laughter with friends. Not very far into our trip I was woken up by my husband yelling a word I will not type or repeat :) I admit I was mad to be woken up but even more mad he would say that word in front of our kids. Once I opened my eyes I see a deer at the corner of the driver side and a loud crash to follow. The swearing was instantly forgiven and this is what our car looked like.

After hours of driving and talking we continued to be thankful for just how lucky we were and how bad it could have been. Our kids were looking at the bright side too. Little Mister was thankful God provides and takes care of us he told me many times that day. Miss M who was in the car behind us was thankful she got to cross the deer of her travel search and find I made for the trip :)
That night we made to camp saw some friends we have not seen in a year and set up camp. The kids went to the park with Brian and discovered dad is really good at giving them underdogs on the swing. While there dad had his own discovery... who cares where we live, if we have a big dent in the car what matters most is right here in front of him, his family!
We continued to remind ourselves of this as the week went on. I called my sister on Wednesday night to find out how my Niece Ammy's MRI went. I was shocked and truly devastated to find out that a spot they have been watching has grown and she will need surgery to remove it. Given the location, rate of growth and past history it is highly likely to be cancer again. After they biopsy the mass they will determine the treatment plan of chemo or radiation. I dismissed myself from dinner went for a walk and if you were in Joseph that day I was the lady sitting on the curb sobbing. Then I remembered what we had been talking about what really matters. I could sit here crying and be down for weeks or I could enjoy the small moments and leave the big things to God. I picked myself up prayed and handed over my anger and grief then went back to continue our family vacation. We are home now and the kids were told today about cousin me me's upcoming surgery. It was rough and the anger and grief have hit us all. We are focusing on the surgery and letting the rest go as much as we can. Keeping in mind that Ammy may have cancer but that is not who she is just something she has Ammy is still Ammy she has the same smile that brighten my day. She is the same sweet girl I have always known and love.

Tonight while editing pictures I found this and was reminded that this the small moments, the smiles and hugs that is what matters most.

Please take the time today to take a picture or write down the things that matter most to you. I would love to see and hear from you as to what matters most to you.


mclegg17 said...

You are truly inspiring Michelle... thank you for the reminder that it is truly the little things!!!


Becky said...

Thank you for helping the rest of us put things in perspective! Your pictures are inspiring as are your words. Our hearts break so many times and we don't understand, but we are so blessed to have our faith in God and friends and family to help us through. Please know that you and your whole family are being held up in our prayers. One day we may understand better- or we may not- but we do know our God will get us through. So thankful no one was hurt in your collision.

Lisa said...

Michelle...So SORRY! It is amazing what it takes at times to remind us how short life can be and to remember the things that are most important. So happy you are all okay!

Anonymous said...

Michelle, thank you for a dose of perspective, Love you Molly