After hours of driving and talking we continued to be thankful for just how lucky we were and how bad it could have been. Our kids were looking at the bright side too. Little Mister was thankful God provides and takes care of us he told me many times that day. Miss M who was in the car behind us was thankful she got to cross the deer of her travel search and find I made for the trip :)
That night we made to camp saw some friends we have not seen in a year and set up camp. The kids went to the park with Brian and discovered dad is really good at giving them underdogs on the swing. While there dad had his own discovery... who cares where we live, if we have a big dent in the car what matters most is right here in front of him, his family!
We continued to remind ourselves of this as the week went on. I called my sister on Wednesday night to find out how my Niece Ammy's MRI went. I was shocked and truly devastated to find out that a spot they have been watching has grown and she will need surgery to remove it. Given the location, rate of growth and past history it is highly likely to be cancer again. After they biopsy the mass they will determine the treatment plan of chemo or radiation. I dismissed myself from dinner went for a walk and if you were in Joseph that day I was the lady sitting on the curb sobbing. Then I remembered what we had been talking about what really matters. I could sit here crying and be down for weeks or I could enjoy the small moments and leave the big things to God. I picked myself up prayed and handed over my anger and grief then went back to continue our family vacation. We are home now and the kids were told today about cousin me me's upcoming surgery. It was rough and the anger and grief have hit us all. We are focusing on the surgery and letting the rest go as much as we can. Keeping in mind that Ammy may have cancer but that is not who she is just something she has Ammy is still Ammy she has the same smile that brighten my day. She is the same sweet girl I have always known and love.
Tonight while editing pictures I found this and was reminded that this the small moments, the smiles and hugs that is what matters most.