I thought I would share a conversation I had with Little Mister that pretty much sums up how we are feeling about the whole thing:
Me " I wanted to let you know we are not going to be moving to the new house after all"
Little Mister- With tears in his eyes " ok, mom"
M- " Are you ok?"
LM- " I am not sad, I choose to be happy"
M- " mommy and daddy are sad it is ok if you feel sad too!"
LM- with a fake smile says " no I really just want to be happy"
A few minutes later I hear him telling his sister that we are not moving but he still gets to go to his new school. Oops! forgot that part.
M- " bubby you can't go to your new school because we have to live in the new house to go to that school"
LM " oh, ok mom. I think I still want to be happy ok"
Couldn't help but wrap my arms around him in a great big hug!
LM- " Mom can Ammy come over to play?"
M-" well, bubby Ammy moved and now she lives to far to come play everyday. we can call and set up a play date soon" ( yes I realize now I should have told him this sooner!)
LM- With big tears running down his face " It's ok mom"
LM- " mom is it summer?" I can see why he asked as it feels like our lives have been on hold and somehow we missed spring all together.
LM-" Good, can we go to Wallowa lake soon?"
M- thankful for the positive turn in the conversation! " Yes! what do you want to do at the lake this year?"
LM- " I want to play with my friends J, A , and R"
M " well honey J,A and R moved to Alaska and they will not be there this year but your friends L and M will be."
LM- " ok they can meet my friend S!"
I tell you that the tears started in me...
M" well honey S can not go to wallowa this year"
LM looks at me with the tears on his face and says " mom I think I don't want to talk to you anymore."
to which he was silent for about an hour which for those of you who know him that is a very long time. With lots of hugs and kisses he was ready to face the rest of the day.
We are ready to move forward see what lies ahead but every once in a while we stop to catch our breath and sometimes feel a little sad.